The Day before You were Born…

This is Day 4 of the Wild Kids, Wild God – 31 Days looking at God’s Heart Series.
Check the Introduction to the series here.

Standing by the crib trying to suss my baby to sleep. The clock says 11:05, one minute before 11:06- my “birthday.” And I wonder: how was God feeling that day? It was the day before I should leave the safe, albeit dark womb and enter the bright, albeit damaged world.Digital time-day before I was born

Would I be loved? Would I be cared for? Abandoned? Mistreated? Abused?

God knew every pain we’d endure, every rejection we’d face, every tear we’d shed… But also every grief we ourselves would cause….

Still, God lets us go..the umbilical chord is cut and we in a sense, are separated from Him. (so glad one of the names of Jesus is Emmanuel: God with us)

So why are we here? To suffer…? To share life and love with others..? There’s a bible verse where God asks, “Who shall I send, who will go for Us?” (Isaiah 6:8)…. and I think:

Who will stand up against oppression? Who will extend their hand to the poor? Who will fight for the helpless? Who will comfort the hurting…? Who will love that new baby..?

Maybe we should think of ourselves as stars sent into a night sky. But sometimes we think our brightness is our own..

There comes a time when every parent hears some kind of: “I don’t need you!” or “I can do this on my own!” (and if you’re not a parent you probably said it yourself ). My son is 6 and already hit this milestone. When he did, I backed off. “Go ahead…try it without me.”

Maybe God, in His Infinite Wisdom, saw the same in us– an “I know better than you!” attitude. Maybe that’s part of why He let us go… But like I long for my rebellious son, God longs for us too:marykissingjesus - LizLemonSwindle

“God.[..] who’s not worshiped with men’s hands, as though He needed anything, since He gives to all life, breath, and all things….has made from one blood every nation of men to dwell on all the face of the earth, and has determined their pre-appointed times and the boundaries of their dwellings, so that they should seek the Lord… in the hope that they might grope for Him and find Him, though He is not far from each one of us; for in Him we live and move and have our being…‘For we are also His offspring.’ Therefore, since we are the offspring of God, we ought not to think that the Divine Nature is like gold or silver or stone, something shaped by art and man’s devising…” (Acts 17:24-29)

The day before my son was born, he heard muffled sounds and saw shadows of sun. But on his birth Day he could see Me, and everything was OK.

Want to read more about God’s Dream of you?
Side note: Matrix is an Old English word for Womb.
Side note:The verse above says: “ Him we live and move and have our being” –that sounds like how it is for someone in the womb (completely surrounded).


Want to read more about God’s Crazy Love for you? Check Wildly Loved, Love Burns Hot.
This post is part of the Wild Kids, Wild God – 31 Days looking into God’s Heart series.

artwork credit: Mary with Jesus, Liz Lemon Swindle

2 Replies to “The Day before You were Born…”

  1. Hi Mama Jasmine.
    Your daily blog posts are quite riveting reading and I find I can hardly wait for the next one!
    Thank you for tying your interesting life experiences with your children and your hubby to how God works in your life, mind, heart.
    In so doing, you help demystify God and His heart, and you make Him easier to understand, easier to approach and easier to talk to. You help make God less mystical, and more “real/real world” to me.
    Thank you. 🙂

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